ATIKA.

2010-08-14T12:48:00.001+08:00

Heyyo readers. I've moved.
Goodbye blogger~

2010-08-05T21:01:00.002+08:00

I'm so in love with myself.
I think I'm beautiful.
K so tonight's post, I'm gonna talk about myself only.
No one else.
Because I'm so frigging bored and there's
no one to get me out of the boredom.
NOOOOOO ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
get it? oh well.

I'm extra sensitive tonight, with the
fact that I just ended my period there's no reason
for PMS to hover near me.

But I still feel like punching someone.
I think I want to take up body combat classes.
wad do u think? like fierce right.

No la i just want to go for bungee jumping
again now. Or even G MAX swing.
Or just shut the fuck up.
Haha.

I feel so emo. My sister too.
Think it's the vibe.

Fuccccccccccccccccccccck it.
just shut up i mean seriously.

2010-07-31T10:43:00.007+08:00

Yesterday night, while waiting for Rudy's call,
I decided to fidget with my camera. After so long,
now I discovered the wonders of it. Haha! Cause ytd
night I had nothing much to do while baby's at work,
and it's the first quality time I had with my camera.
So, here's a few pics showing you the different functions
that my camera has which I personally like.

This is the normal shot.

This is using Smart Filter under vignetting. And i'm using retro photo style.

This is smart filter under fish- eye lens! Pro right got fish- eye!!

So here's the two things I bought courtesy of mother's money.

I FINALLY GOT THIS. HAPPY HAPPY!

And the new ZA Skin Beauty Two- Way Foundation + the pink reflective case!

Okay I want to post more pics, but it took me
a friggin' 1 hour or more than that to upload all
the pics above, so I shall do it next time k.

I miss you boyfriend. Wake up please.heee :D

2010-07-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

i need to bang my head on the wall.
i'm too stupid.

2010-07-27T09:21:00.003+08:00

Yay! I love my boyfriend a lot! :)

If nothing goes wrong by 3pm today, we'll
do the bookings by today itself.
I shall reveal the destination later heee.

Anyways, I have two formal presentation due next week.
I so hate it. Tskk.
Nvm, next week is the last week of school
so EVERYBODY SHOUT YAY!

2010-07-25T14:58:00.003+08:00

During law lecture last thursday, Matilda and me googled about desserts -.-

I just realised I haven't been taking any pics
with Rudy. That guy has a new look already k.
Now with specs. His friend even commented that he
looks like he scored a GPA of 3.8 and above every year.

Ok la. Now you more handsome okay!
I shall show you readers one day.'

Will be going to Kallang Leisure Park with
family later to celebrate Arman's birthday.
Let's play slideeeee!

And Lastly...

2010-07-22T22:04:00.002+08:00

PMS is such a mother fucker.
It's exhausting to have no mood.
Get it? like i'll be more energetic when
I'm happy compare to having no mood at all.
U get my point?

Lol.

It's also exhausting to feel jealous and insecure
unnecessarily. Y'know when you feel threatened
by each and every girl who crossed paths with ur
boyfriend. wahhhh. that one super.

How i hate this raging hormones causing me to
feel stressed unnecessarily, with my appetite
increasing like 3 frigging times, with breakouts,
with this shitty feeling...

It's not that I want to be irritating, the fact
is that I also hate myself when it's days like this.

Thank you Rudy for accompanying me to the doctor
today, helping me settle the bill first and we both went broke after that :)
I love you many many times over the rainbowwww!

2010-07-20T13:52:00.003+08:00

Pardon me. My face looks so hugeee.
I know you readers won't be able to focus on the
little boy's pic as my face is too overwhelming,
but the main point is really the little boy in the pic.

Can't see any clearer? K, let's zoom in.
*looks down*

Guess who's this?
Lol.

he's my one and only Boyfriend with the capital b :)

I bet most of you who read this, will know the actual
story already.

2 months ago, we ended things because of somethings i did.
to tell you the truth, the working things out is the
hardest phase. I don't know why but I cracked.
Problems kept coming up, one after another till I
really feel like it's totally the end cause nothing
seems to be right. I didn't even try hard enough,
I even have the cheek to lie.

Now, when I think back again.. Somehow, the mistakes
I made to damage the perfect relationship we once had
was a learning point and serves as a wake up call to me.
If not, till now, I still would be the selfish girlfriend
that I am, without me noticing.

I expected Rudy to do a lot of things, I would give him
attitude for no frigging reason, I would just make things hard
for him.

I'm not saying that I'm completely changed into a very angelic
girlfriend to Rudy. But, I'm thinking more about how he will feel now.

Not good enough definitely, still I'm really working on it.
Like what I want in this relationship,
I also want him to feel secure, feel very loved, feel that
he's cared for, and the most important thing, he feels comfortable
and happy with me as his girlfriend.

I find that usually, girls will only think about their
own needs in a relationship.
Get too complacent when the boyfriend loves them too much.

After all this period, I realised, my boyfriend
got his needs to. He also wants to feel secure, he also
needs the attention.

Yes, I can confidently says that Rudy loves me a lot :)
But if he's the only one giving, and I didn't... things
won't work out too.

I really want to make this last with you baby.
I seriously hope that one day we could get married,
and tell everyone that we fucking did it :)

I love you Rudy, from the bottom of my heart <3

NETWORKING PARTY

2010-07-15T16:05:00.003+08:00

Networking party yesterday.
While everybody is busy exchanging
namecards, Yiqin and me attacked the food first.

Yes, it's only us sitting down at the dining area
with Dioni the lecturer. lol.

Anyway, we did make some new friends.
Think mostly just for the sake of it.

RRRRR! <3

2010-07-15T13:33:00.001+08:00

“At the age of seven, a young boy and his family were forced out of their home. The boy had to work to support his family. At the age of nine, his mother passed away. When he grew up, the young man was keen to go to law school, but had no education.

At 22, he lost his job as a store clerk. At 23, he ran for state legislature and lost. The same year, he went into business. It failed, leaving him with a debt that took him 17 years to repay. At 27, he had a nervous breakdown.

Two years later, he tried for the post of speaker in his state legislature. He lost. At 31, he was defeated in his attempt to become an elector. By 35, he had been defeated twice while running for Congress. Finally, he did manage to secure a brief term in Congress, but at 39 he lost his re-election bid.

At 41, his four-year-old son died. At 42, he was rejected as a prospective land officer. At 45, he ran for the Senate and lost. Two years later, he lost the vice presidential nomination. At 49, he ran for Senate and lost again.

At 51, he was elected the President of the United States of America.

The man in question: Abraham Lincoln.”
— Author Unknown

Just something interesting to share with all of you :)

2010-07-11T11:40:00.001+08:00

Lowest of lows.

i need you

2010-07-10T18:06:00.000+08:00

2010-07-10T15:06:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHO? heee :)

yesterday night was a down one for me.
For no reason or whatsoever.

Just so you know, I'm missing my girls.
all 8 of them ):

2010-07-08T11:44:00.002+08:00

This is what I planned to do when I told Shanice
I'm going to take my passport photo ytd.
Trust me, Shanice loves it when I do this kind of things.

Anyway, my passport photo didn't turn out anything like that.
I showed Shanice my photo, and she went,
"if I'm a guy, I would fall in love with you."

HAH! take that!

So anyway, there's some presentations to be done this week and next.
Coping well. I just don't want to disappoint my family.
Followed by, well I know my priority :)

Whatever it is, be happy.
And I want things to go smooth.

4 more weeks before YOG break! WEEEEE!

2010-07-05T11:46:00.000+08:00

p.s. I love you

2010-07-03T00:25:00.002+08:00

1st week of school has just ended like very swiftly
i guess. Okay, maybe not. Work are piling up already.

A lot of report has to be done and with my command
of english language which has deteriorated badly
since last year's O level = cannot make it.

Networking party on 14 july.
Formal wear, namecards and red nail polish (maybe).
Like boomz only.

Actually, i got nothing much to blog about,
just that I miss Siyun and me is texting her now.
So goodnight :)

The hell resume!

2010-06-28T18:24:00.003+08:00

She's just wonderful ain't she? :)

Anyway, first day of school.
Shanice has 2 blonde streaks on her hair,
while the rest of us still stays the same.

With Matilda with her never give up attitude
to pester us girls to go to the gym with her.
I finally relented to go on thursday during lunch
but Yiqin told me the gym only opens at 12, and it
kills joy already. So i'm not going. Lol.

Law, please love me. pass please pass please.

I got powerpoint slides and reflection to do.

On the sidenote, I'm missing my very boomz red nails.
See how distinct and significant it is from far.
The only nail polish which gave me orgasm since the
first streak of red being applied. oooh~

I swear this cramps is killing me. badly.

That boy is a monsterrr.

2010-06-27T13:05:00.002+08:00

He loves me. I can't let him down anymore.
I love you, with all my heart <3

Boredom

2010-06-26T22:11:00.004+08:00

My mum will apply this powder every night
on my face. I am so bored that I even have
enough courage to take a picture of myself and upload
it on blogger! Wooo!

Yes, I do look like a myanmar woman now.

I keep listening to Pixie Lott, and for some
reason, Hady Mirza after that. And I kept smiling
to myself.

Hah. Lazy Saturdays.
and I miss R ):

& not to forget G too! hehe.

My Love

2010-06-26T18:35:00.000+08:00

2010-06-26T18:26:00.001+08:00

I'm going Pixie crazy as days goes by.
Oh man.
I think I'm in love with her last time,
but now I'm sure ;)

Excited

2010-06-26T14:48:00.003+08:00

I'm so excited with the idea
of going on a holiday.

I'm searching for the average
flight tickets from SG to Bandung, Indonesia.

Ya, Bandung. Someone said there got scenery.

So anyways, after finally found a website
that could give me the rates and flight timings
to Bandung with the date that I randomly chose,
the cheapest is approximately USD$133 for a roundway trip.
Like expensive only.

So after checking out the hotel rates ytd night also,
I think more than $200/ person will be spent on flight & hotel.
Unless we are lucky enough to get cheaper deals.

I'm like so geared up to go, when nothing is confirmed
yet -.-

Cheaper alternatives is taking ferry to Batam,
or go KL. hahah.

Nothing Compares to You.

2010-06-26T12:25:00.002+08:00

They say if it doesn't kill you, it'll make you stronger.
But I can't be without you any longer.
Everytime I let it go, baby it's you.
Nothing compares to you.

Really, nothing compares to you.
):

2010-06-25T11:27:00.002+08:00

i'm proud to b e rudy's girlfriend!! YAY!! hahaha the man himself won't be seeing this la -.- tika what are you doing...
4:13 AM May 18th via web

I twitted this on May 18th.
I teared when I saw this.
This was when, we were so happy together.
& I have to screwed things up, and make things worse.
I miss you, I miss us.

Turn it up

2010-06-23T20:51:00.010+08:00

Pixie Lott never disappoint me.

2010-06-20T16:47:00.001+08:00

Every single day i’m afraid he’ll meet a new girl who will be prettier, smarter, funnier, or sweeter than me. It’s not that i’m afraid he’ll leave, but i’m afraid he’ll be in love with her while he’s still with me.

feel it.

2010-06-20T16:23:00.003+08:00

I would rather fight with you than make love to anyone else

Hair.Heels.Her

2010-06-18T14:16:00.004+08:00

Among other things, I really hope I can
save up enough to do my hair, buy my
black dress and heels for the upcoming event.

I really really need to.

But it seems impossible. Everything needs
to be done at least 1 week before 10 July.
Left me with 3 weeks exactly. sigh

Among other things also, I really hope
I can be a lot more stronger.
More to the emotional side cuz physically,
I'm fine. lol.

I hope I can pull through this phase well.
Everyone hopes for something good in the end.
So, I'm wishiing that something good will come out
of this.

No one knows.

2010-06-18T13:22:00.005+08:00

I finally met her after sooo long! She bought that huge board
for her assignment. She like me, I like her.

Crazy woman on the loose. lol

Arman shirt states: Lock up your daughters.
HAHA. Airport ytd night.

Jealous Cause I love you

2010-06-17T09:48:00.001+08:00

She's on my desktop background.
Oh my. How gorgeous.

2010-06-17T09:44:00.000+08:00

2010-06-11T23:57:00.002+08:00

Chocolate from Norway. I just wanna boast about the length.
KING SIZE LEH! :D

My very first polaroid experience. Credits to Yiqin for
bringing hers on Shanice's birthday and wasting the very
unaffordable films on us! Yiqin, Shanice, Matilda & yours truly(:
Can't deny we ALL look very sweet in here!

Next up, Singapore National Museum Children's Season.
My group isn't in- charge of all this kids booths.
Instead, we are the ushers for the performance Play It Easy
by Gamma: Rays. They're very very awesome music people. Wonder why
they don't have much coverage here as local talents though. hmmm.

So, here are all the very much overdue pictures from
the past weeks. Mid Semester Test just ended, which means
a very good 2 weeks break for me! YAY!! I can sleep as much
as I want now!

Not to forget, enjoying myself moderately (:

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT for this love baby <3

2010-06-03T22:14:00.003+08:00

Everyday, I go through my life with the thinking
that things will get better. Somehow, somewhat.
Everyday, I tried to put up that impossible smile on my face.
But you know it's hard when that one person that
makes you feel so excited to go through the day,
makes you smile early in the morning by that one text,
makes you feel so happy inside that your heart flutters
whenever he calls, is not the same anymore.

Each time, I would try to find that little bits of
happy happenings, to get through the day.
Things like him answering my calls and talk for a mere
10 seconds would make do. Things like him replying to
one of my texts would make do.

Everything reminds me of him. Even my clothes reminds me of him, what I wore when we hung out. I can still smell them all over him, even though his scent hasn’t been there for long.

The feeling of guilt is overwhelming.
Everytime I wanted to rise up, it pulls me down instantly.
I disappointed someone that loves me so much, greatly.

Sometimes, it just makes me so dumbfounded that
I don't know what to do at all. I want him to know
that I love him so much, but he wouldn't know.
I want him to know that I care for him a lot, but he wouldn't know.
Whenever I feel a sudden rush of sadness, the man
himself taught me something; be calm in every situation.

The guy who could make me laugh so loud and yet,
cry so hard at the same time.

Through this all, I love you still.
Nothing ever changes.

2010-06-02T21:07:00.001+08:00

2010-05-25T09:00:00.001+08:00

I didn't know what I did wrong.
It shocks me early in the morning..
I didn't cheat.. I didn't lie..

I swear to god about that..
WHY?

2010-05-24T06:36:00.000+08:00

its 635 am.. i have a v uneasy and sleepless night the whole time ytd.. beats me too.. juz felt so down lately.. idk why also.. i keep waking up at ard 1, ard 5 plus.. and finally 615.. class ends early today so its ok though..

2010-05-23T12:33:00.001+08:00

I got to remind myself to rent this
on Thursday. I'm gonna watch it when sister
fly off to Norway (:

2010-05-20T23:20:00.002+08:00

I just wish that I could get that bit of trust from you.
I just wish that we would go back to those days where we didn't fight.
I just wish that everytime we argue, I could stop crying.
I just wish that everytime we fight, I could solve things.
I just wish that I could be the best for you.
I just wish that I could make you trust me.

Wishful thinking.

I just wish that you know I'm only in love with you.
I just wish that when I'm typing this right now, tears won't drip.
I just wish that I could be more stronger emotionally to take all this.
I just wish that whenever we argue, I could just shut the world down.

2010-05-18T18:55:00.003+08:00

I set this picture of a skinny girl as my desktop background.
Apparently, Mr Dioni, which is my Events Management Comm.
lecturer saw it, and asked:

D: Is that you?
Me: No.
D: Then who is that?
Me: I don't know. Some skinny girl.
D: Then why do you set it as your desktop background?
Me: She's my idol.
D: *a very disturbed look* Okay.. Having a stranger as an idol is disturbing.

Well I think having Dioni as a name is even more disturbing.

2010-05-15T00:11:00.004+08:00

A date with boyfriend after school.
Love is in the air! heheh.
Whatever it is, this guy will always be the
highlight of the Student Service Centre if he
sets foot in it -.-

Clay art! Yiqin bought various colours of clay
and we all started to play with it.
Only ladies with passion and interest can do this,
me & Shanice were out.

2010-05-13T13:07:00.002+08:00

Babe, if there's anything, tell
me. I know sometimes I have to ask u
for advice but that doesn't mean I can't
be a good listener. U know I love you n seeing u cry is
the last thing I wanna see.

2010-05-11T18:31:00.002+08:00

I'm taking some time to unwind.

Last weekend, my classmates and I went down
to Pasir Ris D' marquee for the NTUC U RUN.

Good experience I should say.
We reported at 12 midnight and stayed
on till 7am, where the event starts at 745 am.

Managed to catch some sleep of 1 and half hour or so,
with Shanice & Matilda lying on the cartons of water,
Yiqin in the trolley, Jireh on the flat ground, and me
on the table. The sky is our shelter for the night.
Can't imagine what will happen if it rains, there's
no shelter nearby nor did they gave us any poncho.

Stayed on till 11am, and went to meet boyfriend
for lunch.

two assignments due thursday.
I CAN DO IT.

2010-05-06T00:30:00.002+08:00

I'm being extra petty and whatever tonight.
Giving unneccessary attitude to Rudy, being a pain
to deal with.

What's this.

I do question my own actions sometimes.

sorry):

2010-05-04T21:35:00.003+08:00

My Sweet 17 (:

These 3 girls were fabulous! I especially love my vanilla
cupcakes together with the icing on top(:
Love you babes endlessly, since I was 11 years old.

My Fcukers :D
Thank you Danriz & Helmy for the celebration :D
Me enjoyed the day with you guys !

And, the man who love me a lot (hehe)
Wa manyak sayang sama luuuu!!

Apparently, all of them planned to celebrate it together.
I climbed the Mount Everest, eh no, I mean Mt Faber
with dearest boyf just to reach the top, and my 3 precious
girlfriends were already waiting there. Soon after, Danriz & Helmy
came. Enjoyed the time with all 6 of them :D

Night time, went to yello jello for a gig by Rudy's close buddy.
River taxi after that.
& I simply love the whole day.

All pics are on Facebook.

Anyw, I just did my hair treatment & cut away
my split ends. YAY!!
My hair feels so light.
Me like!!!

2010-05-01T21:03:00.003+08:00

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO ME!

The most advanced birthday present which
was given 6 days before the actual day.
Samsung Digital Camera from my boyfriend!!
I still remembered how I nearly spoilt his plans, and
even believed the excuse of him going to City Hall to buy
guitar picks- 3 for $2 -.-

Received this pair of pumps from Kakak
ytd. She went all around town with Zarie to find this for me!
Thank you!!

2010-04-27T23:23:00.002+08:00

Second week of school already..
I'm still struggling and adapting.
I'm still trying to change my mindset.
I'm still crying every night when I'm
supposed to complete my assignment.

I want to cry but to don't know who..
It's just the laptop screen staring blankly
back at me.

2010-04-25T21:50:00.003+08:00

Completed my assignment over at Starbucks @ One Fullerton
yesterday.

Nice Saturday with love.
A good end to my quite hectic week.

On the side note, I haven't met
my fcukers for a very long time!
SOON okay. heee! (:

Anyway, I miss SIYUNNNN ):

2010-04-24T00:59:00.002+08:00

TGIF(jireh dk what this means till today)!
So anyway, had our group discussion after AVS class today,
and we're done with our National Museum Report.
There's still a long long way to go.
I created the cover page for the report. Its so
colourful because we're working on some children events here.
Hope school will be fine by next week, or hope my mind and body
is already set to expect what is coming.

next up, some camera session with the boyfriend.
Went to Farrer Park for our late lunch cum dinner,
and headed to bugis.
This guy here loves my mom.
My mom on the other hand, likes him.
Uh huh.......

2010-04-21T12:43:00.001+08:00

Germin called me in the middle of the night
asking me whether I'm fine or not.
Thanks babe (: that's very sweet of you.

2010-04-20T20:37:00.006+08:00

I seriously am very sick of school.
It's only the second day and school has suck
all the energy out of me.

It's like how i felt back in secondary one,
with new environment and friends- suckish.
Felt so frustrated to do know who and what.

I woke up this morning, went to the bathroom,
sat on the toilet bowl and stared at the ceiling.
I asked myself: what did I just do to my life?
I feel like quitting poly. lol like that's
even possible.

I can't even look forward to anything good.
Sigh. ):

Anyway, during Events Management Communication class:
it's introduction time. we were definitely bored.

boyfriend where are you.me miss you.
):

2010-04-19T23:11:00.001+08:00

When jealousy strikes, look away.

2010-04-19T22:06:00.001+08:00

Happy first (:

2010-04-18T01:53:00.001+08:00

Eh?
the happiest for me now: flu to be gone.

2010-04-17T23:31:00.002+08:00

Out to town with Sofeana & Jannah.
Caught the movie My Rainy Days.
They were so touched till they cried.
Haha.

not that good tonight.

2010-04-16T00:03:00.002+08:00

FLAG DAY 2010.

Fresh-from-the-bed look. Its 10 in the morning @ Chinatown!
One common happening that linked the 3 of us: We get to know each of our
boyfriend through the net!! *winkwink*

Others worked their ass off to obtain more than 30 bucks? I collected
only $11.35 in an hour. Not bad right ;)

Some netizens donated korean coins. 400 WON.

Basically for the flag day, we (Matilda, Jireh, ZY & me)
only stand for an hour and off we went to the Central
to have lunch. After that, we went back to our meeting point
& head back to school.

Met Rudy after that, and went to catch Shutter Island.
I don't quite understand it. Not a movie for the slow- catchers
definitely.
School starting on monday!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2010-04-14T20:26:00.002+08:00

Second day of Orientation was super boring and waste of time.
I regretted going.
One whole day is wasted just like that.

The scorching sun didn't make it any better
for me either cause it left me with a very
bad headache till now.

Early in the morning- as early as 4am, I was
awakened by a very terrible pain in my stomach.
Not any normal kind of stomachache nor was it
pms (according to Rudy) -.-
I ended up in a rolled position while clutching my
stomach in a vain attempt to reduce the pain.

Flag Day at Chinatown tomorrow.
I hope the weather will be fine.
If not I can faint due to excessive exposure to the sun.
Freshman welcome party at The Concourse tmr.
Hope to see some familiar faces! (:

2010-04-13T22:56:00.002+08:00

FRESHMAN ORIENTATION WEEK.

First day wasn't as bad as I thought.
Luckily I've got Shanice, Dora & Michelle
for the whole day. Since we are all in the
same school (:

Shanice & me felt so fat compared to
the other two- you should see how they eat!
Its all about dieting and restricting
temptations. While me and shanice, we just
eat like nobody's business haha!

Was relieved when I realised I got into
the same class as Shanice, met my new
classmates already.. 5 guys all clading
skinny jeans.. Not bad for a start of something really new.

I MISS SIYUN.
I MISS SITTING BESIDE HER IN CLASS.
Must do a good job for ur presentation k!
Don't let yourself down!
LOVE YOU DARLING!

Tmr is games day. I just wanna feel hyped up for
it cause seriously I'm not that keen.
Fuck it.

Rudy fetched me from school.
I love you baby!

2010-04-12T22:38:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my first day of FOC.
Russell already complained to me about his'.
I'm scared but at the same time kinda like
looking forward to it? Idk.. it's good that
I'm kinda excited about tmr..

I still don't know what to wear tmr.
Kakak ask me to wear something simple so I won't
be recognised as one of the freshie. But the problem
is: Orientation is solely for freshies and how can
I not be identified as one?

Even my laptop can be recognized as a freshie due
to the Garskin. k whatever.

Everyone seems to not enjoy their orientation.
Including peeps from RP. won't be asking NP students
though, theirs must be something enjoyable.

Anyhoo, went back to FRM to collect my payslip and
Junnal gave me his Spinbucks! heee thank you !!
They got really new mouth- watering pastries and cakes.
Get to see Siyun and chatted for awhile.

Two thumbs up for Diary of a Wimpy Kid! :D

2010-04-11T02:53:00.002+08:00

Caught this with cousin & Kakak just now @ Lot 1.
Give it a two thumbs up! just don't watch it as
a midnight movie- I didn't enjoy it that much
even though its damn hilarious cause I'm already
sleepy -.-

Was about to fall into a deep slumber
when the woman beside me decides to snore
loudly. READ THIS. Exhausted is not an excuse.

And the sudden thoughts of school starting
was very awakening. I shouldn't whine too much,
wait I didn't even whine to anyone about this
but to myself only. Just plain nervous & afraid
I might get lost and suddenly became so blur and
embarrass myself infront of my new classmates
or whatever. sighs.

Its 3.04 am on a Sunday morning. Im still not asleep.
Tuesday is Orientation day I've yet to figure out
what to wear.

Russell Peters and Annoying Orange is helping me to sleep.

2010-04-10T13:02:00.003+08:00

Finally I found the time to update this blog of mine.
Been thinking to switch to different online journal, because
blogger can't seem to enlarge my words. I LIKE IT BIG!
k no. so anyway, the past week had been a very very
memorable one for me.

East Coast with Rudy- we barbequed, we bonded, we pitched the tent, well we love each other more (:

Food for the 2nd day! That's a lot I know. Rudy's cousin came to visit and he helped us
clear out the stock. His cousin bought Ruffles Sour Cream & Onion Potato Chips. It got me hooked. SO NICE! can't stop munching after that~

SAAAAAAP! Wind-in-the-hair shot.

Took a walk after shower in an attempt to dry my hair. My very tired face due to
less than 4 hours of sleep the night before.

Through all this, Rudy managed to get to know me a little bit more,
I managed to listen to his past some more, get used to each other's
attitude, understand each other way better, I managed to be a good girlfriend
by packing up his stuffs, he managed to be a good boyfriend by taking
care of me real well. We've grown closer towards each other I must say.
Just don't grow tired of each other okay(:

So yesterday, went for a swim with Sofeana and Jannah.

Fitri didn't tag along cause she's studying..
Anyhoo I love you girls a lot(:
Okok, not to forget Danriz & Helmy too. ^^

And sorry Siyun I didn't manage to accomopany u today :/
Will meet you soon alright darling! Must miss me :D

2010-04-05T00:53:00.003+08:00

Kakak definitely is the beautiful one.

I'm definitely the uglier one- a fact I must accept ._.

Spicy Chicken Promodoro @ Pizza Hut. Very spicy but not very nice.

All time favourite oii !
Starbucks Caramel Frappucino w/ extra caramel drizzle (:
If u saw it clearly, the whipped cream is wholly covered with caramel.
hehhh.

Pictures from last friday when I had a date with Kakak.
Mom was away to KL for 1 day and dad as usual mine his own business
by going out to who knows where.

B-Y-E !

2010-04-04T12:57:00.002+08:00

Mum just got home yesterday night.
I swear Kakak is very handicapped when it comes
to cooking and being in the kitchen.
She even needs to LOOK at the cooking
instructions when all we need to do is
boil the pasta.

I think my schoolbag looks funny :s

And I won't be back till thursday.
Out for some serious fun and adventure
out of home.
till then(:

2010-04-02T13:18:00.002+08:00

"I love you many times over compared to those other girls..they will always be the "other girls" to me and you will always be mine.."
- blogged.

I love you many times over the hills too!
Please continue to be the Rudy that I've always
fancied since day one. Please continue to do
all those sweet little things that's very significant
to me like offered to exhange ur share of food when I
complained that my Fish & Chips isn't nice. Don't stop
reminding me that you love me or miss me through the
very random texts or calls. Don't stop being positive always-
you make everything so much clearer and easier to get by.
Do continue to make me laugh at your silly jokes. Don't stop
trying to be the best boyfriend, cause ur already one to me.
Most importantly, please continue the wonderful thing of
loving me (:

I love you baby <3

2010-04-01T23:57:00.004+08:00

Sumptious dinner at BaliThai with family.
I still think mum is too pretty for dad. LOL.
I got nothing to talk about today.
Very tired and whatever like that~

bye.

2010-04-01T00:35:00.004+08:00

I'm so loving today cause I shopped
till I drop that I can't stop!

I bought 7 tops and I'm one happy girl.
Me and Sofeana raided all the F21 in town-
from Wisma's to 313.
We even get the $10 Gift Voucher! cause we
spent more than $80. Ok, thats unnecessary.

Seriously that Sharifah girl is one irritating
bitch, because apparently she just can't took her
eyes off me. whaddafuck.

Met Rudy for dinner at Swensens. The food there
just sucks big time. I can't even force myself
to finish up the other half of the Fish & Chips.
We both agreed that IMM Bagus Banquet serves
better and bigger Fish & Chips.
The downside: We paid double the price.
I started folding tissue paper boats, and
he followed too (;
LOL.

Get home, had my shower,
straight away get down to business of
painting my nails red. My nails look so
BOOMZ!

Just ended talking to Zara, used to be my
high school senior, and now my DEPM senior.
She told me that the course is really tough
and they test us on formal letter(WTF??!), english
language and so on...
I feel like changing course already.......
K joking. I'm no chicken.
I think what worries me more is the process
of going through it for 3 years.

Rummaged through my bag and found the paper which
informed us on DEPM's FOP.
It will be on the 13 to 15 april (tuesday to thursday).
I'm just not ready to go for it seriously.
DEPM intake is 120. There's 6 classes= 20 per class.
omgomgomgomgomgomg. I AM FREAKING OUT ALREADY.

Just afraid I don't cut out to be like
one of them..

):

On the sidenote: My dear Shanice is having a dance showcase
at NAFA together with her dance mates
from DANZ PEOPLE! this coming 30th April, Friday.
Do come down & support!
Details-
Ticket price: $20
Venue: NAFA
Date: 30th April 2010, Friday
I'm so bad at adevertising,i know.
Anyhoo, anyone's interested, do inform me(:

2010-03-29T23:40:00.002+08:00

Firstly, I want to wish this beautiful girl
above, a very HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!
I know i'm late in wishing her in this blog cause
I can't upload pics from my phone a few days back.
Anyhoo darling, i love you okay (:

Just got my lappy from school just now.
Seriously, I wanna thank Rudy for helping me
out in most of my school stuffs. He even went all
the way to my house to send the lappy over as
he was carrying it and was delighted when my mum says that he's handsome.
haha. both of them are very cute when talking to each
other as they kept grinning widely lol.
I love you laaa (:

He's working till 3 am. Im trying to stay awake
till 4 actually, doubt I can make it..
I'm wasting my time watching some KPOP
actually.YES, KPOP! I can't believe it either..

Doing my ezlink card tmr. SP sent 2 texts today
reminding us if we didnt pay the $8, we won't
get our EZLINKCARD. so threatening -.-
anything that requires us to pay first is always
urgent.

Making some Milo for myself now..
Bye lovelies <3

2010-03-27T03:38:00.001+08:00

I love you boyfriend <3

2010-03-24T23:31:00.002+08:00

Signed my resignation letter today
and my last day at Spinelli will be this Friday.
I'm gonna treasure each seconds I have
with Junnal for tomorrow and Friday, I promise.
Lol.
Sickening manager, he actually threw my
resignation letter into the fridge. wtf.

I'm listening to the different versions of
All Out of Love now~

I know you're all stressed out.
I'm sorry I can't do much to lighten it..
but you know I'm gonna be there..
It's just another very bad phase, it'll be over..

2010-03-23T23:50:00.003+08:00

Was supposed to have Macdonalds' Breakfast
ytd with him, but the mister himself was late.
._. so lunch instead as early as 11am, and that
was my only meal for the day.

Went back to school and joined the juniors for their
training. Only did physical training which consists of
a lot of stretching especially for the legs.

(I'm still craving for Starbucks' Fudgy Chocolate Cake)!
Grrr.

Should I just asked Dad to order my notebook online?
Save me all the trouble by purchasing it from school right.
Which I foresee I won't like to stay any longer in the
compound especially when I'm gonna be there alone on
30th March

First time working full shift today at HP.
Not bad, except for the non- stop standing by the
end of the day my legs feels like its breaking into two
till the extend I asked Mela to massage it which she dutifully
did and even asked me to pay $10 ._.

Basically my life revolves around home, town, and workplace.
Don't blame me if its uninteresting, cause I'm sick of
it too just you wait till I stop working, I'm gonna sleep
all day (k actually not) and maybe do my hair and the first
thing I wanna reward myself after getting my pay is definitely
the Starbucks Fudgy Chocolate Cake which I've been craving for
weeks already despite the fact its only $4.50(!!!) and maybe
do up my hair which looks like a kuntilanak from far or near
and buy that schoolbag which i have only Eastpak in my mind now
and get that pumps and that shirts basics shorts long sleeves three
quarters and everything else not to forget the lappy case which I only
want the $45 one but am still deciding and I wonder why there's no
fullstop but I kinda like it this way though and lastly not to forget
I'm missing that boyf of mine oh so bloody much!

2010-03-19T23:07:00.002+08:00

We met today, and yes, I became your girlfriend(:
I love you.
I'm still speechless from just now...

<3

2010-03-18T00:10:00.002+08:00

I think now I really should be careful with what I'm doing.
I give my best only if he's giving his best too.
The past, really thought me a lot.
And I believe it goes the same for anyone who went
through bad relationships before. You just don't want
to be hurt and left anymore, and you just don't want
to go through that cycle again. Twice was enough for me.
I never wanted to stop believing, but people forced me to.
It's all or nothing at all.

2010-03-16T01:10:00.001+08:00

I don't wanna keep on chasing lights.
exhausting, really...

2010-03-14T23:06:00.002+08:00

Out with my girls ytd. First karaoke session to a very
full & sumptuous dinner all thanks to Sofeana (:
Fun. Very very fun.

Hi. I'm YANO YANO THE PENGUIN~
actually i don't know what's the movie title,
but anyhooo, R forced me to take this picture.
that's the main point. HAHA joking!

Just gave mum my last $15 in my wallet.
i'm going to survive tmr without any money at all.
GO GO GO!

2010-03-11T23:10:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to like Pixie Lott very much.
She's just perfect in every single way.

Met Jannah and we just scanned the heartland,
had lunch and checked out laptops. I kept aiming
for the lightest weighing ones and get all excited
about it.

Something is really wrong with me when I need
Starbucks Caramel Frappe to kick start my day
on a daily basis. god.

2010-03-11T01:21:00.004+08:00

Online Enrolment is from 5 March to 7 March.
I only realised that JUST NOW.
Date & Time check: 11 March, 12.15 midnight.

PANIC!!!

luckily i can still manage to enter the portal
and do up all those shits.

been so stressed up thinking of all this dates
and the purchasing of laptops. cheapest is $1,110
but its Fujitsu and its in pink. Don't want pink laaa..
irritating.

told my manager that i'm quitting by end of month,
Junn kept asking me to think carefully. he definitely
don't want me to go...

i'm totally broke, 2nd time this happening already..

2010-03-09T00:09:00.004+08:00

hehe look at his face. he just missed riding a bike.
picture long overdue!
urgh the program for my new phone just won't run
so i can't upload new pics!!

catch Up In The Air with Rudy today.
very awesome movie, a must watch!

Planned some things with Sofeana after
we both quit end of this month. Can't wait ! ;D

Just love spending time with him, even if its for
half an hour, its still great.
Can't wait for april baby ! :D

2010-03-06T22:41:00.002+08:00

Suddenly had this feeling of regret
of going to Sp. should have chosen ngee
ann instead. tsk. whatever it is, i can't
let this thought pollute my mind.

Currently got this one dumbass chatting with me
online. for the fact that i dont even know him,
and totally ignoring him, he still got the courage
to ask me out.confident abg manyak tinggiii!

this weekend is so boring. somebody ask me out leh.

2010-03-04T23:30:00.002+08:00

ALL I GET IS MY ECHO ECHO ECHO.
by Girls Can't Catch.

Worked at Forum outlet today.
Finally!! and I miss Junnal
so much! lol. of cuz the others too(:

Thanks Aiman for forgetting to bring
back ur cookies, and let me have them
haha!

Not sure whether I'm going for that
frigging medical checkup tmr.
Want to accompany me not? tsk!!!
leceh nak mampos.

2010-03-03T23:13:00.001+08:00

Met my girls just now. Its been a really long
time since I laughed that loud. hee :D

I don't know why but I keep doing all sorts
of dumb things now.
Sorry...

2010-03-03T00:01:00.003+08:00

according to you,
i'm stupid i'm useless i can't do anything right.
but according to him,
i'm beautiful incredible he can't get me out of his head.

-

my blog is dead.
wanted to post pictures but can't seem to
upload it so post videos instead, which is
very boring actually ._.

Current music: Shinedown.

2010-03-02T01:50:00.003+08:00

a hectic day. NUS 1 is so hot and humid and everything heaty.
40 breakfast roll wth. i only did frigging 6 at Forum!

Sofeana passed me her 2nd monthsary present for me to
safe keep first. Vans shoes and a Fox top. wooo!
3rd month ape lagi sia..
heheh.

I swear my parents are being a pain in the
throat. I swear. especially mum, and dad for being
the supporting contingent. They are just being very
unreasonable for a small matter, trying to blow it up
out of proportion. Father alr ruined my day in the early
morning, as early as 630 am. just found out that dad is
younger than mum. eeee. what a turn off fact. eeee.

So addicted to Adam Lambert- What do you want from me.
if my future boyfriend sings that for me, omg. my heart will
melt~

2010-02-27T23:29:00.001+08:00

So addicted to this song for the past few days!!
haha i don't know why...

went out with the mom today.
very exhausting trip, really.
feels like sleeping now but must watch
online movie with sister ~~

2010-02-26T00:04:00.001+08:00

I always told myself not to expect too much.
If things didn't happened, at least I won't
feel that hurt. you know?

2010-02-25T09:09:00.003+08:00

Start work at 12, i'm already awake by 730.
HAHAHA.

i want to eat but no food.
i want to sleep but.. haiya..
shut up lah.

a piece of chicken and a piece of cake
for breakfust-cum-lunch today.
so pathetic but i like. ^^

2010-02-24T22:41:00.002+08:00

Been working and working this week.
Tmr is thursday! finally..
transferred to Change Alley tmr, i think
i'm gonna be dead there.. it's okay, just
do it.

my mind is out of thoughts nowadays, good
that way so i dont think much. heee.

i want caramel frappe, cookies & cream ice cream,
chocolate chip cookies and a new earpiece.
haha.

2010-02-22T20:10:00.002+08:00

I asked mum to cook dinner, but
ended up I have no appetite at all.

it's only 830 pm, and I already feel
like sleeping but like too early but
i think i'm gonna do it cuz if sleep early
means i won't talk nonsense. which i already am.

i think i gonna swallow my pills and head to bed
after this.

2010-02-21T15:56:00.002+08:00

Kakak wasted her overseas sms
just to tell me this:

Babe aku tak tahan dgn satu budak ni.
She's big & short. Pki yellow big top.
Yg takde shape punye. Makeup die, blusher
semerah2nye. Lipstick mak die punye color.
Ikat rambut stengah but senget. N she looks
only 15! Ahahaha. Siak ah. Wish ur here to see this.

omg kakak! you so bitchy big time punyeee siak!

2010-02-21T12:06:00.002+08:00

How come they don't have this here?

Been thinking a lot and I think I'm set.
Don't know how I'll do it, but it should went fine.

I think I need cookies.

2010-02-20T23:55:00.001+08:00

I was getting ready to sleep,
but I ended up crying under the covers.

2010-02-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 17th SOFEANA!
Hope you enjoyed today, and you know i love you loads! (:

2010-02-20T02:31:00.001+08:00

Vulnerable. Impossible.

feels like shit.
a major turn off for tmr's supposedly
fun outing.

2010-02-18T22:36:00.002+08:00

Hot nak mampos. Huat ah! Huat ah!

Sister is packing her stuffs. Apparently
she's going to KL on Saturday till Tuesday.
I'm going to own the bed to myself!

I drank a lot of drinks made by myself today at work.
All because I don't wanna waste the milk that I foamed or steamed.
I personally love soy milk.
I drank a cup of Hot mocha followed by soy cappucino,
and lastly managed to sneaked out a cup of hot chocolate
out.

Rudy made my day(:

2010-02-17T22:36:00.001+08:00

Don't talk if you don't want to.

2010-02-17T11:34:00.001+08:00

I stuff my face with nice foods when I'm down.
I'm typical like that.