Pardon me. My face looks so hugeee.
I know you readers won't be able to focus on the
little boy's pic as my face is too overwhelming,
but the main point is really the little boy in the pic.

Can't see any clearer? K, let's zoom in.
*looks down*



Guess who's this?
Lol.

he's my one and only Boyfriend with the capital b :)

I bet most of you who read this, will know the actual
story already.

2 months ago, we ended things because of somethings i did.
to tell you the truth, the working things out is the
hardest phase. I don't know why but I cracked.
Problems kept coming up, one after another till I
really feel like it's totally the end cause nothing
seems to be right. I didn't even try hard enough,
I even have the cheek to lie.

Now, when I think back again.. Somehow, the mistakes
I made to damage the perfect relationship we once had
was a learning point and serves as a wake up call to me.
If not, till now, I still would be the selfish girlfriend
that I am, without me noticing.

I expected Rudy to do a lot of things, I would give him
attitude for no frigging reason, I would just make things hard
for him.

I'm not saying that I'm completely changed into a very angelic
girlfriend to Rudy. But, I'm thinking more about how he will feel now.

Not good enough definitely, still I'm really working on it.
Like what I want in this relationship,
I also want him to feel secure, feel very loved, feel that
he's cared for, and the most important thing, he feels comfortable
and happy with me as his girlfriend.

I find that usually, girls will only think about their
own needs in a relationship.
Get too complacent when the boyfriend loves them too much.

After all this period, I realised, my boyfriend
got his needs to. He also wants to feel secure, he also
needs the attention.

Yes, I can confidently says that Rudy loves me a lot :)
But if he's the only one giving, and I didn't... things
won't work out too.

I really want to make this last with you baby.
I seriously hope that one day we could get married,
and tell everyone that we fucking did it :)

I love you Rudy, from the bottom of my heart <3